Solo in Singapore

 

Last May I scored a round trip flight to Hong Kong for under $400!! (Thank You Scotts cheap flights!) I didn’t think I’d like HK so I planned for most of my trip East to be spent in Singapore because it looked way cooler (more on that in the HK post). Asia in general has never ever been on my list of must visit areas but I was peer pressured by my coworkers, it was such a great deal and I also really liked Crazy Rich Asians so why not?

I spent 4 days solo exploring in Singapore and I split my time at two different areas of the city. The first two nights I stayed at the M Social hotel that was more south west of the main attractions but close to a metro station and within my budget. I loved it, It is not your typical hotel room design and the vibe of the entire hotel was super cool and hip. They have several different layouts including a loft design that I’d definitely try next visit. Breakfast was included with many different options including a omelet robot which was amazing.

 

My next stay was at the Hotel Indigo Singapore Katong, this was my splurge of the trip. I like to stay in the under $150 range when it comes to lodging but the rooftop pool, room design and views were tots worth it! I mean look at this!!

 

 

 

Disclaimer, I was sick this entire trip and it was a total bummer! It was like some crazy extreme allergies and If I didn’t stick out like a sore thumb already being a 6ft tall white girl, add in some nonstop sneezing, watering eyes and nose running like waterfall and trust me I was like a tourist attraction. That being said it did affect my sightseeing and overall spirit unfortunately so I didn’t get to see and do as much as I had planned in my short stay. Singapore is Expensive!! I had heard it was pricey but people say that about a lot of places, they’re not exaggerating when it come to the Garden city. However, if you book attractions through Klook you can save a fair amount of money and you save time by booking online in advance.

 

Top of my list was Gardens by the bay, it’s one of the number one things that pops up when researching Singapore with its futuristic avatar like trees and amazing greenhouses. The first night I was there I was just wandering around without any plans and happened to wander into the grove as the nightly light show was happening. Every night at 8pm the trees come alive to some lovely 80’s music lol it was a fun experience but make sure you are there ahead of time to find a spot to sit and enjoy the show.

I booked tickets for the exhibits the next morning and the key is to be the first in line. I was there about half an hour before they opened and they actually let me in about 10 mins early which was so awesome! They have a rainforest dome and a general garden dome, I heard the garden one got busy quicker so I did that exhibit first.

 

I LOVE plants, my apartment has a plethora of them and I call them my plant babies so I loved seeing all the different landscapes. Each section of the dome is divided by location, there was a Mediterranean, African, desert, middle eastern, and a really awesome tulip festival display. I practically had the place to myself and I was in plant heaven. (I had grand plans of using my tripod in the domes however the part that holds my phone busted on the flight over)

Next was the rainforest dome and OMG it was Magical! You walk through the doors and the first thing you see is this massive Waterfall, I actually think it’s the tallest indoor waterfall in the world, don’t quote me on that but I think that’s what I read. Thankfully it was still pretty early and I was practically alone beside some people doing a photoshoot.

 

So you start on the bottom layer and work your way up into this massive mountain covered in tropical and amazingly lush vegetation. I took like a billion photos because everything was so beautiful! I also saw my first squat toilet that I had been warned about, thank goodness there were normal toilets available haha

Gardens by the bay also had an exhibit called the flower dome while I was there and jaw drop!! You have to book this ticket separate from the other exhibits and its by time slot, and you get an hour in the dome. I joined a time slot towards the end of the hour but it actually worked out really well as most people line up at the beginning and you don’t need a full hr to see everything, so again I was almost by myself!  I love Gerber Daisies and the whole entrance way was the most beautiful colorful display, there were tons of moving displays and being that Singapore is the land of Irises, they were everywhere and, in every color, imaginable. I think this dome rotates through exhibits but I highly recommend the flower dome!

My next stop was the Science museum. located pretty close to the Gardens by the bay, I booked my ticket on Klook and saved some $$. This was one of the only times I wished I had a travel companion because this place was packed with cool Instagram worthy photo opportunities and unfortunately, I had a very hard time finding anyone that would snap a photo for me. My favorite room was the hundreds of little mirrors hanging on strings, it was so soothing and memorizing! Thankfully I got the guy working to snap some pretty awesome shots of me!

I usually like to just wander around a new city with no plans but it was so so so hot! I’m an early bird so I would get up as soon as the sun was up and try to see as much as possible before noon and I would retreat to my hotel or mall to chill till it started to cool off in the evening. I think being sick added to the problem but I have never sweat so much doing literally nothing, It was gross! I’m not a hot weather human so when I plan another trip, I’m going to try to find a time of year that’s not scorching if that exists. When packing make sure you pack as lightweight clothing as possible, I had some sundresses and tanks that were flowy and light. Most people there seemed to be dressed to the 9’s and full fashion but I was like Nah I want to be comfortable.

 

Singapore is the most diverse place I have ever been to and the city is divided into different cultural centers. There are actually very few native people and the national language is English, however, I noticed that very few people use English even though they know it, making starting or joining conversations very difficult. I never felt unsafe even when walking alone at night, I did feel uncomfortable at one point in Little India that led me to leave that area but that came from my insecurity of being stared at for being different.

I’m a big fan of Ferris wheels and the Singapore Flyer is one of the best! On a clear day, you can see Malaysia and some Indonesian Islands. I picked the perfect time to go, there was no line and only had to share my pod with a sweet Indian family, their son was super fun and wanted to take pictures with me lol I do recommend booking ahead of time and going on a weekday will help you escape standing in a ridiculous line for hours.

 

On my last day, it was a total downpour so I did my usual hop-on/hop-off bus, it was the first time in 3 days I found other tourists that openly spoke English that I could have a conversation with! What I love most about bus tours is 1. it’s great transportation through the city to all the hot spots and 2. All the great information you get from the guides, sometimes you get a live guide and sometimes a recording but they always have a ton of info about the area and fun facts. For example, I learned that it is super difficult to get a driver’s license there and insanely expensive. It’s kinda like a lottery system and this keeps their streets clear and NO TRAFFIC!!! Pretty awesome!

Amanda Takes the PNW: Part 1

It’s been a dream of mine for years to venture west and explore the great pacific north west! Pictures of wild untouched coast lines, snowcapped mountains and deep rain forests captured my adventures heart. However, the prices of flights and lodging squashed that dream quickly and I put this trip on the back burner for years. When I got an email in September for a rt flight out of Charlotte to Vancouver for under $300, I didn’t even hesitate! I booked that flight for my birthday before I even asked my boss! (thanks Scotts Cheap Flights!)

 

First Stop: Vancouver, British Columbia

I flew into Vancouver on Friday around noon, after a delayed flight then a nearly missed connection, thanks American airlines. I always do my research on public transportation before I land in a new city, so if nothing else I can at least make my way from the airport to my hotel. Vancouver has a pretty nice public transportation system however it was sort of confusing to figure out the payment part. SOOO let me save you some confusion and $. A fare is $2.95 and grants you travel on busses for 90 mins, I was paying each time I switched busses before I saw someone reuse a ticket. I had gotten a Compass card to use but after my initial trip from the airport had yet to find anywhere to actually load it and their website doesn’t support US bank cards to reload online. I finally stumbled upon a load station on day two and got a day pass that allows you to travel all day for about $11.

 

I stayed at Coast Coal Harbor Hotel, nothing spectacular but great service, comfy bed and a nice deep tub which is always a plus after walking all day. After checking in and settling in for a little bit it was time to get started.

 

I had spent so much time planning for Seattle that I had barely given any thoughts as to what I would be doing in Vancouver. But thanks to Pinterest I quickly mapped out my weekend plans. A lot of what I really wanted to was outside of the city and just not feasible for a 2-day trip and in Jan due to weather conditions. It’s amazing how Vancouver has a temperate pretty warm winter with temps in the 40’s and just 30 mins outside of the city is a winter wonderland with several different ski resorts and 2hrs north is Whistler, a top ski resort and where the winter Olympics were held.

 

I started my first day super early with a trip on the bus into North Vancouver. Capilano suspension bridge and park is one of the top tourist attractions of the city and you will see it on every blog and tour website. Since it is so super popular its always busy and costs about $50 for an adult ticket. A much cheaper and way less congested version and more of a local hiking spot is Lynn Canyon. The paid option does offer some other attractions besides the bridge but I much prefer less crowded and more organic experience and Lynn Canyon delivered!!

 

This place is becoming more and more known so the trick is to get to the park as soon as it opens to enjoy the bridge and trails to yourself. I grew up in the mountains of North Carolina and didn’t think anything could top the beautiful mountains, waterfalls and forests of the Blue ridge mountains but this place takes a very close second to my top hiking adventures so far. Of course, the highlight of the park is the suspension bridge, I don’t mind heights or bridges but this was a little sketchy and it moves with every step!

 

I had gotten there early enough to be one of the first few people and was lucky enough to get some shots of an empty bridge which is not easy to do. I really wanted a picture of myself on an empty bridge but I couldn’t find a safe spot for my tripod for a self-portrait and when I did ask someone it was already getting kind busy.

After the bridge experience, I did a little hiking and all I could think about was Jurassic park and being in a jungle. It was so lush and green for being mid-January! Being form the south I’ve always loved the Spanish moss hanging from the oak trees but the moss hanging from the tress was so lovely and made my imagination run wild with stories of hobbits and adventures.

 

I made my way back into town and grabbed a bus to Granville Island, another highly rated Vancouver must see. Granville Island is a unique mix of restaurants, little shops, a children’s market as well as the main attraction, Granville Island Public Market. If you’ve followed me long enough you know my love of markets and their endless aisles and stalls full of local produce and trinkets. I actually stopped by here both days, mainly because it was so busy Saturday it was hard to enjoy and shop and I fell in love with Lees Donuts and needed a second helping ha-ha

I grabbed lunch from a Chinese spot the first time and found a nice spot on the water to enjoy until a seagull attacked me!! I didn’t even see him coming until he was on my head trying to grab my food! Not cool and I was not happy about my $15 of delicious food being wasted. On Sunday I grabbed and amazing bratwurst from the German food stall and it was so good and uncontaminated by a bird. Overall, I think the island itself is over hyped and too busy to really enjoy at least on a weekend.

 

I took a stroll down to China Town, it was super sketchy and passed quite a few homeless and being alone was a little uncomfortable at times. But I really enjoyed seeing the arch and enjoyed the Chinese Garden that was free and open to the public. I also spotted the world record holder for skinniest building in the world. It’s not marked or has any signs so you just have to look it up on apple maps, it just said “world’s smallest building” but I think the building sign says it’s a lawyer’s office.

 

My final stop in Vancouver almost didn’t happen because I was tired and the four-hr. time difference was kicking my butt! But I motivated myself and hopped on a bus towards Stanley park. Another highly recommended Vancouver sight but this one is truly a gem and a 100% must see spot. I regret not spending more time here and hopefully I will be back soon to explore the 1000+ acres.

 

There is sooo much to do within the park and I barely touched the surface of its beauty. I walked about 2.5 maybe 3 miles of its seawall and took about a million photos. Around every turn and switchback was something even more beautiful. I wish I had stared earlier in the day because while beautiful the fog started rolling in and you couldn’t see the bay or watch the entire sunset. I unfortunately didn’t have time or daylight to see the totem poles or all of the beaches but I’ll be back!

Growth in the waiting

If you know me, you know that I desire to be married and I pray quite a bit, well every day for my future husband. When I was younger, in my early 20s my prayers looked more like “ God, please send me a husband that’s cute” 🤦🏻‍♀️ But throughout the years they have progressed, I’ve become more patient in this season of waiting and growth. I started praying for more specific things like “ Lord, may he know and serve you, may he be loving and kind, be emotionally and financially able to lead us, etc etc”. When giving the wait to the Lord and trusting in him fully, he has at times put specific things on my heart that maybe my husband had going on or struggling with. So I’d pray “May he be patient and trust You and the wait, when struggling that he looks to you and has faith in the future. May he break off any relationship or friendship that is wayward or influential in a negative way” 


As I am finishing up my 29th year on this earth( I’m holding on tight to 29!)and still very much single, I’ve again found my “future husband” prayers evolving in this season. I still pray everyday for my dear and our future and for his journey and life before we become one but I’m taking time to look at myself in the mirror. Am I the woman my husband needs? Am I prepared to be a wife? I want my husband to be emotionally/financially ready but am I? Can I be or provide all the things this man needs to be successful? For us to be successful? So I started praying for my future husbands wife, myself! to be all that he needs, I pray for us as a unit, as a team and when we become one that we are just that, one! A covenant that God created. 

Soooo this weekend I was at a Men’s encounter and not a participant obviously 😂 I was in the back making sure everything ran smoothly! I have served at a men’s once before but had tuned out most of the teaching. This weekend however I periodically tuned in to what Pastor was saying and one in particular caught my attention. Actually I hadn’t planned on listening in and I was the middle of listening to a podcast when it randomly stopped and I noticed they were talking about Marriage. So my marriage longing heart was like oh yess let me see what these men are discussing! 😂

My takeaway is that Men need respect over anything else, I as a wife crave affection but what my husband will thrive on is my respect for him. When I look at the couples that I aspire to be like in the future they all share the common denominators of wife respecting husband and husband loving and being affectionate to wife! 

One other Takeaway from the weekend is that men cry and they share emotions! SHOCKING! I was raised in the belief that tears and really any kind of emotion is weakness. I even remember at one point in my teenage years being told “you’re a Lockett, we don’t cry”. It’s taken me 29 years to break that and i now 100% believe that it’s quite the opposite! It takes bravery and strength to cry out and show emotion, And right in that moment of clarity and truth I said to God “ father please never be there a moment where myself and especially my husband not feel free to shed tears in happiness or sadness. That we be 100% transparent with each other in all emotions, and that I as a wife support and respect my husband”

I’m just going to say, ladies seeing men praising God together, praying together, shedding tears, supporting and hugging each other is such a beautiful thing and it’s so sad to think that the world has brainwashed us to think it’s not masculine. I look forward to marrying a guy that’s man enough to cry it out! 😊


So I know Im rambling along but I just want to always encourage others in the season of waiting or longing to be married. We always see things that encourage us to pray pray pray for our future spouses but we often forget to get ourselves in the right place to be the other half of the equation! I also want to challenge people to be vulnerable and share your heart! 



3 days in Nashville!

I’ve been wanting to make a trip to Nashville for a couple months so when my boss said they needed someone to cover a class for two weeks in Nashville I jumped at the opportunity!! My schedule ended up being pretty full but I did get three full days in the city!

My company provided lodging and I was actually in Hendersonville, TN about 25 mins outside of downtown Nashville but it wasn’t that bad of a commute. However I have decided that if I had a choice or plan my own trip to Music City its best to stay as close to downtown as possible. Parking was absolutely overpriced, more so than any other city I have spent time in! On my last night there I parked for 45mins to catch the sunset off the pedestrian bridge and it cost me $15, I did find that parking in a few of the parking garages in the Gulch are free for the first hour and then not to expensive after that. So I would highly recommend staying downtown or close enough to grab and uber or lyft which there is no shortage of throughout. The whole area is very walkable as well.

Ok I must confess I’m not exactly a fan of country music and defiantly not anything from the last decade. I grew up with Tim McGraw and the Dixie chicks but outside of that it all sounds kinda silly to me, Hopefully I don’t offend anyone! So my trip to Nashville is everything you can see/do besides the Honky Tonk bar scene.

I’m a huge fan wandering off the beaten path and finding all the neat untouristy things a city has to offer. Of course I like to see the main attractions and what all the people are talking about but I feel you really get to know a city by picking one or two main attractions to see then letting the rest of the day happen organically. One thing I couldn’t pass up was the Nashville wings located in the Gultch. It’s a beautiful pair of intricately painted wings on the side of a building that people line down the street to get a picture of. I thankfully was one of only three people to visit this on a Thursday evening! I kinda wish I had a different outfit on and did a different pose but I’m thankful that I was able to find a stranger that would at least take my picture since I was rolling solo. One of my favorite things about my time n Nashville was all the awesome street art, it was everywhere and so neat! I would plan a trip back just to seek out all the murals!

Of course I can’t leave a city without visiting the local farmers market, they are my absolute favorite thing to do and see everywhere I go. The Nashville farmers market so far is my favorite market stateside, I made three visits and saw new things each time. I loved all the fresh produce and the smell of fresh strawberries filled the air, there were fresh flowers, meats and cheeses and pastries. At the end of the market was a greenhouse with all sorts of plants and trees and I hated that I couldn’t take them all home! In true Nashville fashion there was live music, fresh lemonade and a coffee truck. as well as an amazing food truck that you can read about in my Nashville food post! The market is located within the bicentennial park and capital mall, its a lovely park with great views of the state capital and the walkway is lined with a great timeline of Tennessee’s history. Parking is limited though and I had a hard time finding a spot on Saturday due to it being their busiest day.

I had fun exploring all the little areas and neighborhoods outside of downtown, Hillsborough Village is a hip little area with some great shops such as Pangaea and Posh. There is also the very popular Pancake Pantry and Jeni’s ice cream. I also enjoyed an area a little south of downtown, there is some great street art including the “make music not war” mural, a great floral war as well as the “I believe in Nashville” and the great stripped wall outside of Reese Witherspoon’s boutique DraperJames. I also stopped at five daughter bakery and just enjoyed walking the streets here.

On my Sunday I enjoyed a great service at The belonging Co, very spirit filled, great worship and the staff/volunteers were very inviting. I enjoyed the sermon greatly and loved how they seemed to really care for their community. After church I found myself in Greece, well I was in Centennial park but a life size replica of the Parthenon resides there. For $6 you can go inside to the art gallery and also see the massive gold statue of Athena. The Park boasts a lovely duck pond, walkways an open field for picnics and playground for the kids. There was also a food truck on the afternoon I was there.

I’m a big fan on supporting local business owners and small businesses that give back to their communities. I happened to follow a few Nashville owned businesses on Instagram so of course I had to stop by their shops and pick up a few goodies and Two of them happened to be on the exact same street. The Shine Project employees local teens and also helps with college funds as well as being a great Girl power and self love influencer. I follow Ashely on both her @theshineproject page and her clothing page and she is just overall an amazing woman that changes lives and encourages other through her testimony, you should defiantly check her out! they had all sorts of handmade jewelry, tshirts, banners and a few cute bags. Another great shop I stopped at is Project 615, they sell all sorts of tshirts and tanks with fun sayings and Nashville sites printed on them. They donate 100% of their profits to the community and help with housing and other needs. I also follow them on the gram and they do have some great sales on things each week!

In my short stay I was able to cover pretty much everything outside of the honky tonk that Nashville has to offer. I really enjoyed my time in Music city and I hope to venture back sometime soon and explore some of the other hidden gems it has to offer! Hopefully this helps you plan your adventure and feel free to ask for any other tips or anything!

Nashville Eats!

I had some pretty amazing food on this trip, I always use TripAdvisor and Pinterest to make a list of the top rated food stops before any trip and then also check out whatever looks neat on my wandering.

When I landed on Sunday I was so hangry and then took a wrong turn after trying to find a specific restaurant and ended up in the Gulch. I hadn’t pre planned anything in this area of town so I just picked the fist place I found and ended up at Burger Republic. I not a fan of being sat at the bar but that always seems to happen when I travel alone. The service was really great, the bar tender was super helpful in explaining how the menu works as well as suggesting a great burger called the Tennessee and some garlic bacon fries! But the real treat was the amazing chocolate peanut butter milkshake, it was truly in the top 3 of the best milkshakes I’ve ever had! I was also told by multiple people that their adult milkshakes are on point!

On my first day off I had fried pickles and an amazing baked Mac & cheese with Hot chicken at the Stillery. Up stairs they have a first come first serve seat yourself deal going on and while service wasn’t the greatest the atmosphere was fun and I did enjoy the live music. They do have a more formal dinning area downstairs.

Another highly recommended food stop is Edleys Bar B Que. they have several locations and I stopped for lunch at the one in Edgefield. I ordered the Brisket plate a sweet tea and it was mouth watering! SOOOO good! I got there right before lunch hr. and thankfully because the people were lined out the door soon after I arrived.

I have a major sugar tooth and I found some great places to satisfy it!

First stop was five Daughters bakery and their 100 layer doughnuts are more like a cronut which I love! They have a couple locations in the Nashville area as well as one in Atlanta. I loved the adorable design of the shop, fun bright colors and a great outdoor space to enjoy in the sweetness. They offer a wide variety of flavors including some gluten free and vegan options!

A very highly recommended spot was Jeni’s splendid ice cream. I drove by the Hillsboro village one night and saw the enormous line out the door and down the street and decided to pass.  But I happened upon them again at the farmers market with no line, they do have several locations and a brand new one in Charlotte! They have all sorts of flavors including frose and some rather interesting ones like sweet corn. I opted for a fresh in house made waffle cone filled with The darkest chocolate and butter cake and despite the fact that I think more melted and dripped on me then I actually ate, it was decadent!

I visited the Nashville farmers market several times and on Saturday the grilled cheeserie was parked and serving lunch. I had several friends recommend this food truck and it did not disappoint! I actually tried hunting it down again before I flew home! I ordered the grilled pimento Mac and cheese and Oh my goodness it was soooo sooo tasty! I highly recommend them and you. An find out their daily locations on the website!

My last stop on the way to the airport was another doughnut shop because I do love me some doughnuts! This place was called the donut den, I had seen pictures of red velvet doughnuts and I couldn’t pass that up. Unfortunely they didn’t have red velvet when I stopped but they did have an amazing apple fritter!

This is just a taste of what Nashville has to offer, hopefully I can come back soon and continue the music cities culinary experience!

Marriage fever strikes again

As encounter season approaches, I start getting major marriage fever.

There is nothing more amazing to witness husbands and wives breaking chains, worshipping together and Watching relationships make complete turnarounds in a weekend! It blows my mind and truly shows the miracles that God Can Do and Wants to do in our lives and in our world! I also get the joy of watching couples in ministry and how they interact with each other, how they support each other, minister together, worship together and it encourages and gives me hope. In this world and in my generation, I’ve seen so many marriages thrown together, rushed and after the honeymoon ends I’ve witnessed the heartache and pain that friends/family have go through when the relationship crumbles. So to see couples so rooted in Christ, seeking him first in everything and supporting each other through thick and thin it makes my heart happy 😊

I love the season I’m in right now, I’m still kinda young 😂, single and absolutely loving life. I have traveled, have a great career, support myself 100% and I’ve been blessed beyond belief! I’m so thankful for all that God has given me, for his never ending love and presence in all that I do! I am complete in him and know nothing will ever be able to fill his spot in my heart and in my life.

But I wanna be married, Oh how I long to be married, I just can’t wait to be a wife!

I want nothing more than to be able to support, encourage and love the man God made for me. I want to worship, pray and change lives with this man, I want to dance around the kitchen and cook dinner with this man. I want to travel the world, meet people, try new things. I just can’t wait to love him and be the wife he needs me to be and see what God has planned for our lives!

I’m not naïve, I know life will throw us curve balls and it won’t always be easy. But I have faith that this time we’ve spent praying and preparing ourselves will give us the patience and love needed to make it through the times where we feel like we are on totally different pages or whatever else try’s to derail us.

New month, New Goals!

Happy August my peeps!

As we start the 8th month of 2018, I am taking some time to reflect and reestablish what my purpose is. I’ve been trying to keep going big, travelling more and trying to see how much I can grow my Instagram but then becoming more and more frustrated that I don’t have followers. I was listening to the podcasts  and reading the blogs and it just seems like I sit at my same 460ish friends(thanks to all my loyal amigos!)

I think it hit me most on my last trip I just took to Nashville, It was actually a business trip but I had a three day weekend to myself in the city. I found myself just doing things that the Instagram world would like! I did all this research as to what was most popular in Nashville and what was getting the most “likes”. While I did enjoy the trip I kinda had an eye opening moment when I was editing photos, “why am I doing this?” well I talk to myself like I’m my own home girl so it was more like “Gurrrrrrl what are you doing? what is the end goal here?”

I started this whole thing with the goal of being sponsered to travel………… I think? I’ve relized that I never exactly had a final goal, Which isn’t all that rare for me. I’m extremely ADD so when I look back at all my life, Im all over place but that is truly who I am Just Me. But since aprilish I’ve lost that part of me and have tried to conform to the world blahhhhhh I hate saying that but I can’t lie. I follow some amazing people and I look forward to seeing what thay are up to each day, they seem to have it all figured out, they get paid to do all this stuff and go to amazing events. In my head I was like “thats what I want” I mean who doesnt want to not have a boring 9-5 career?

So I decided I needed to up my fashion choices, get into makeup and stop buying store brand items, adios great value! I mean thats how you get a brand deal right? You gotta spend money to start making money? But even after all the prepwork and stuff it takes some people years and thousads of followers before they get a paid deal! Sorry its not that I’m not patient, I just relized thats not me!

Long story short, While I love seeing what Noelle and Rachel do every single day on the gram(they are two of my fave people that I havent ever meet lol) I am much more comfortable and happy chillin in my Old Navy, MAYBE some mascara and my nikes from the outlets! I’m me, I’m no size 2 or 4 or even 12, my hair stays in a bun 90% of the time, I’m too loud somedays and silent on others, I’m team save yourself for marriage, I dance like there is no tommorow and I love serving and hanging out with God above all! From this day forward I’m going to be unpologetically me, I may not not have thousands of followers but Jesus had 12 and look what he was able to acomplish! I may have to pay for my own groceries but thats life and just like they say in “he’s just not into you”  Those instagramers are the exception, they rest us are the rule.

Am I going to stop travelling? Absolutly not! But I’m going to do it my way and take pictures of what I want, eat where I want and maybe not document every second and actually be present in the moment! While it would be super awesome for someone to pay me to travel, I also love the fact that I can say “hey i worked hard for that getaway, I earned it!”

What I am planning on doing and my new goals include spending more time following what God wants me doing. I’ve been feeling him pull me towards a specific group or season of life and I whole heartedly want to persure him and that project. I trust his timing, his word and his promise more than anything else in this world. Ive always said I was a world changer but didnt know how I’d do it but that season is fast approuching and I am so very excited to start working and hopefully have something to share with you all soon!

God I’m frustrated, but I trust you

A couple weeks ago I interviewed for what I consider the dream job, still within Walmart and in the Academy division but lots of travel and meeting new people.

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Well I just found out that They went with another candidate. My immediate thoughts were “I just suck at all this”, “why can’t I say the right things”, “what is wrong with me” and “this just isn’t fair!” I literally wanted to pause the class I’m teaching and give up and cry😢

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If there is one thing that God has planned for my life, I’m pretty sure it’s Patience. I like to Go, Go, Go and he is always saying “whoa, whoa, whoa”. I need to understand that while I’m praying for direction and that Gods will be done in my life and that he use me, that I also need to be open and ready for when he closes doors or says no. I need to be patient and trust that he already has it all planned and perfect in his timing not mine.

Wedding Season and 1 am thoughts

In this weekend of endless scrolling through pictures of literally everyones wedding( I’m pretty sure there are only like 5 of us single folk left) it’s super easy to start feeling a tad jealous especially as a 29 yr old Jesus loving girl.

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I love weddings and always have, I watch all the shows, have Pinterest boards and dream of being a planner someday. For years and years I planned my perfect wedding, every single little detail down to the napkins and pocket squares the groomsman would wear. I don’t know the exact moment that my heart changed, but the more I pray for my husband and our future, the wedding itself becomes less and less a focus.

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We have become a generation of gorgeous and elaborate “instagram” weddings. We are putting so much effort in planning and preparing for that ONE day, But what happens after the wedding? What are we doing to prepare for marriage, for our lives after we say I do?

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I’m no expert and honestly I have no experience in relationships at all🤦🏻‍♀️ What I do know is that I haven’t met my husband yet but I love him fiercely. I pray for him and our marriage more than I’ve ever prayed for anything in my life. I pray that when we profess our love before God and become one, that even in the storms and trials we face we are just that. “One” a team, a covenant that can’t be broken. I pray that we are world changers, that we save lives and bring Gods love to all those we encounter. I pray and have faith that we can break the chains of divorce in this generation. That through our endless pursuit of God and each other, we can bring hope and courage to those who thought all was lost.

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I just want to encourage you all to look beyond the wedding, the honeymoon and look at what you want to see happen in your marriage. Spend more time preparing for the battles the enemy and the world will throw at you and less at what songs your guests will enjoy most or what signature drink you’ll serve.

Free

‘Tis a season of breaking free of the chains of fear that had imprisoned me for far to long!

This weekend I went through a bunch of my old journals and found all my plans for youth ministries, songs I’d started to write, business plans, changing the world and just all these amazing things I had forgotten I’d dreamt up. I was laying in the middle of all these piles of papers and thinking why did I stop, What made me quit dreaming? Fear, fear of failing, not being taken seriously, not being good enough and even Am I worthy enough? I let the enemy steal my dreams, I let the ways of the world take over my thoughts. I’ve become a corporate drone a robot that day in and out does the same thing with no impact and in fear of what would happen if I jumped into the unknown.

But the chains are broken and

I have sooooo much to share and sooo many ideas running wild though my brain and God is moving in ways I had never imagined and I just can’t wait!!

Freedom!!!

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#freedom #godisgood #breakeverychain #worldchanger