Happy August my peeps!
As we start the 8th month of 2018, I am taking some time to reflect and reestablish what my purpose is. I’ve been trying to keep going big, travelling more and trying to see how much I can grow my Instagram but then becoming more and more frustrated that I don’t have followers. I was listening to the podcasts and reading the blogs and it just seems like I sit at my same 460ish friends(thanks to all my loyal amigos!)
I think it hit me most on my last trip I just took to Nashville, It was actually a business trip but I had a three day weekend to myself in the city. I found myself just doing things that the Instagram world would like! I did all this research as to what was most popular in Nashville and what was getting the most “likes”. While I did enjoy the trip I kinda had an eye opening moment when I was editing photos, “why am I doing this?” well I talk to myself like I’m my own home girl so it was more like “Gurrrrrrl what are you doing? what is the end goal here?”
I started this whole thing with the goal of being sponsered to travel………… I think? I’ve relized that I never exactly had a final goal, Which isn’t all that rare for me. I’m extremely ADD so when I look back at all my life, Im all over place but that is truly who I am Just Me. But since aprilish I’ve lost that part of me and have tried to conform to the world blahhhhhh I hate saying that but I can’t lie. I follow some amazing people and I look forward to seeing what thay are up to each day, they seem to have it all figured out, they get paid to do all this stuff and go to amazing events. In my head I was like “thats what I want” I mean who doesnt want to not have a boring 9-5 career?
So I decided I needed to up my fashion choices, get into makeup and stop buying store brand items, adios great value! I mean thats how you get a brand deal right? You gotta spend money to start making money? But even after all the prepwork and stuff it takes some people years and thousads of followers before they get a paid deal! Sorry its not that I’m not patient, I just relized thats not me!
Long story short, While I love seeing what Noelle and Rachel do every single day on the gram(they are two of my fave people that I havent ever meet lol) I am much more comfortable and happy chillin in my Old Navy, MAYBE some mascara and my nikes from the outlets! I’m me, I’m no size 2 or 4 or even 12, my hair stays in a bun 90% of the time, I’m too loud somedays and silent on others, I’m team save yourself for marriage, I dance like there is no tommorow and I love serving and hanging out with God above all! From this day forward I’m going to be unpologetically me, I may not not have thousands of followers but Jesus had 12 and look what he was able to acomplish! I may have to pay for my own groceries but thats life and just like they say in “he’s just not into you” Those instagramers are the exception, they rest us are the rule.
Am I going to stop travelling? Absolutly not! But I’m going to do it my way and take pictures of what I want, eat where I want and maybe not document every second and actually be present in the moment! While it would be super awesome for someone to pay me to travel, I also love the fact that I can say “hey i worked hard for that getaway, I earned it!”
What I am planning on doing and my new goals include spending more time following what God wants me doing. I’ve been feeling him pull me towards a specific group or season of life and I whole heartedly want to persure him and that project. I trust his timing, his word and his promise more than anything else in this world. Ive always said I was a world changer but didnt know how I’d do it but that season is fast approuching and I am so very excited to start working and hopefully have something to share with you all soon!