While spring cleaning and purging my office and journals it’s been interesting to look back at all my 5 millions lists, I planned everything! Every aspect of my life had a timeline, things I needed to have done by a certain age or in a year, a few months, next week, etc. I had lists for my future husband and what I was looking for and needed in a potential spouse. I had house plans, career plans, names of the four kids I’d have and plans for their lives lol I was a total control freak. When the deadline came and I hadn’t achieved the goal I would hate myself, feel like a total failure or have a meltdown of sorts, I’ve come to realize all of my life’s disappointments have come from all those plans I made for myself.
Sooo I look at my life currently and over the last couple years at all the amazing things I’ve accomplished. I’ve meet incredible people, explored amazing places, tried new foods and new things and not a single one of those were apart of “my plan” This sounds cliche but I’ve let go and let God. His plan is beyond anything I could have ever dreamt up. I still have goals and things I aspire to and I do struggle sometimes when I see friends getting married or buying a house but God has the ultimate plan. He truly knows the desires of my heart and in his timing he will make those come to life!